Yo Yoga

I'm getting really tired of watching television. We hear it all the time, but it's really true. There's not a damn thing to watch. Ever. It's just this incredible waste of time and space in my brain and yet, there's not much else to do when I want to just chill out. Cable television is actually really bad for my depressive and hermit tendencies. It encourages me to stay inside and waste time watching reality television instead of going out and doing my own thing which makes me depressed about not having a life which makes me not want to go outside and live my life. It's a cycle that's doing me no favors, so I have a plan to get me out of T.V. oblivion. (I write this as Charmed on TNT is playing in the background, mind you...): I'm going to start doing yoga. Kundalini yoga that's supposed to be good for stress relief and known to have calming and healing qualities. I have been getting migraines more and more frequently for the past 3 years or so and I'm getting to the point where I'm willing to do whatever it takes to stop. I also have this growing pit of anxiety in my stomach and heart and jaws that I need to get a handle on. I think that it might help and since my sister gave me 5 yoga classes for Christmas, why shouldn't I do it? I'm also going to start paddling. Like canoing with a group that meets on weeknights. I really need the exercise and the sunlight and the social part, so there it is. It's not exciting, but it's what I'm going to try to do now. Because I have to work through this depression that's trying to get a hold of me and I'm tired of trying to figure things out. I think I'll just do yoga and play on a canoe for a while and try and figure things out in a calmer, healthier way. It might be giving up, or postponing the inevitable but I'm tired of worrying about so many things.